More is less. Less is more.

"I wish I could have done more"
"I wish I could do more"
"I hope I could get the opportunity to do more"
"I'm so upset. I'm not doing enough"

Are examples of thoughts that are almost always haunting me. I'm always stuck with this idea that I'm capable of doing much more than what I'm doing right now. I'm the kind of person that always pushes himself to the limits. I enjoy challenging my own limits. It makes me feel like I'm contributing to something, making good use of my limited time here, and that's what has always been pushing me to keep going and do things.

Up until now, I think it's been going pretty well for me; having that kind of mentality. I like it so much that I don't think I'll ever abandon it. It has grown on me so much that it has become an integral part of who I am. A personality trait, if you might say.

What I think I need though is to learn how to tame it, because it is as wild as a wild plant in the woods. It looks good from afar, but could get dangerously poisonous. I need to be at peace with the fact that I am actually doing well, sure, I could do more at any giving moment in my life, but that doesn't mean that I'm not doing enough at that very moment.

For everyone who believes in their hidden potential, their ability to achieve great things and are deeply saddened by their inability to live up to their own standards and accomplish as much as they would like to right now, I want you to take a moment and be glad that you're that person you are because you are a great person and the world needs more passionate and strong-willed people like yourself. 

It may not happen now, or even any time soon, but you will have your breakthrough and it will turn your life upside down, don't rush it. Your enthusiasm and excitement might fade away slowly with time, but that's okay, just try and keep some of it until your moment comes.

Have faith and hold on tight.
Great things take time.

Life, summed up

412 Days

Early in the morning,
right after sunrise,
when the streets are quiet and everyone's asleep, 

I still wander around our memories. 

I think of you, and I recall.
It all comes back rushing into my head and,
the weak muscle that sits in my hollow chest beats, still, for you.

For you'll always be my first, my only, and I'll always be yours.

Potential

Potential: My best trait and my worst nightmare.

The struggle of constantly being thought of as the next big thing, and maybe you're just simply mediocre.

From the eyes of others you've been seen as a "potential" wonder, someone who could one day become something, achieve something different, do something that's never been done. Oh, check this kid he's got potential! From my youth years, I've been struggling with it.

First, some people thought I was good at football that I could potentially play at a pro level. A few years later and after several brief and very disappointing trials at bettering myself and following through the expected path of maybe becoming a footballer, I failed.

Things changed, and I realized I wasn't good enough, or maybe I didn't commit enough, or maybe things just didn't work out.

Then you go somewhere else, do something else. You find yourself stuck in a rut, in a life challenge that everyone goes through but only the strongest and most disciplined get through successfully, and because you've got potential, you're expected to excel. You're expected to succeed. You feel pressured and you lose yourself in it. You fail, yet again.

You don't give up, just yet, you pour yourself once again in an entirely different world, to test yourself, to test the potential everyone keeps talking about, and by being yourself those around you start thinking highly of your character traits, your values and ideas. You start hearing the word potential again. The burden gets heavier, you feel responsible and obliged to deliver, live up to the expectations and even surpass them and impress. You set higher expectations for yourself and fail to live up to them, but this time the reactions are mostly positive from the surrounding. A glimpse of achievement and a tiny bit of success is finally achieved.

You start to think that you needed to cut yourself some slack from the beginning and genuinely believe. Not that you're superhuman, not that you're special, not that you have something that no one else has, but to believe in the possibility that, with the right attitude; mindset and behavior, you can succeed. You start paving the road that you would like to take and learn how to pace through. Block out both praise and negative criticism. They both have the same effect.

Once you come at peace with the fact that you are only different by the results you end up with, not what others or even yourself think (or even believe) you can get, aspire and hope you can get, no, just the ones you actually get are the ones that matter. Because at the end of the day, only results do matter. Only then you've set the first foot to the journey of success.

By taking that road, with that mindset, you'll most probably know your way and learn how to get to your final destination as you move. 

Life -bi-cycle

Life is a lot like riding a bicycle.

First, you need to find your balance.

Then, choose the path you wish to pursue, and judging by how long it is, how steep it is, the amount of obstacles it has, you start setting your pace. You learn that when you're facing a steep hill you have to go faster and put more effort because the road is getting harder and you need to keep up with it if you want to reach your desired destination.

Also, you learn that sometimes you have to stop pedaling and just enjoy the ride, like when you're going down a hill and the bike just goes on its own due to gravity.

But, if you're not paying enough attention to the road, you might trip on a pebble or an abnormality in the road, thus always keeping an eye on the road, under your feet, is essential at all times.

Cycling generally makes you stronger, healthier and happier and that's how you should grow through life. Learn from every experience, be stronger, lead a healthy lifestyle and enjoy your limited time here.

Yearning for Adventure

Frankly, I'm not sure whether I know what, specifically, is wrong,

Or maybe I do know everything that is wrong.

I strongly believe in the whole living in the moment, analyzing the current situation you're at; where you're at in life and being grateful for everything you have while setting an eye for what's yet to come and carefully plan for it,

And I am doing all of the above, I see myself pacing on that path. 

Yet, I find myself not okay with everything as it is now, worrying about life's next destination, 

And then I see all the opportunities that are out there in the world and I go nuts, 

Wanting to go everywhere and do everything.

Feeling somewhat trapped, as if my feet were covered in concrete, 

And it's the worst feeling in the world, for I am rootless.

I am not a tree, I am not to be pinned down in one place.

I am dynamic, I move, I go places, I explore.

I yearn for adventure.