Questioning everything is always the right thing to do. No situation is permanent; whether it's a place, a person, a feeling, a desire or even a passion. Everything changes. Time changes everything. The more I throw myself into the unknown, the deeper I know myself. I discover it, shape it, alter it as it seems appropriate. It's a soul-wrecking cycle, but a necessary one.
We are who are. We always change and we never change. Accepting contradictions will never be easy, but that doesn't make them any less true. At least in my head, I know that it is. Changing or staying the same is one thing, and growing is another. Maturity is built upon by every growth we embrace by choosing to change, or to remain the same when encountered with a challenging situation. I choose to stay the same. I acknowledge what has been done. I'm aware of it and fully conscience about it. Same goes for what I did, and did not do. I know myself all too well; I know what I am and what I am not. Self-awareness was never a point of doubt.
Matters of the mind are often puzzling, but never too complicated to grasp. Matters of the heart, on the other hand are hard. They confuse us, makes us believe what is not true. Feelings fool us into false assumptions and blind us from the screaming truth. At the end of a day, watching over a beautiful sunset, we are all weak beings. No matter how tough we pretend to be. We'll always long for acceptance and understanding.
Giving is always the first step to receiving.
“One day," you said to me, "I saw the sunset forty-four times!"
And a little later you added:
"You know-- one loves the sunset, when one is so sad..."
"Were you so sad, then?" I asked, "on the day of the forty-four sunsets?"
But the little prince made no reply.” ― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince
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